Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Mommy Guilt

I'm a working mom. Most of the time I'm ok with it. I generally enjoy working, and I won't lie, I like the extra money. Or I would if I didn't hand it directly over to the mortgage company.

I get up every morning, get the kids up and dressed for school & daycare and head off to work without thinking twice about it. My husband and I carpool since we work so close together and we solve life's problems during our hour long commutes. Now that I've canceled my Blackberry service in an attempt at being frugal that is.

Sunday evening my middlest love climbed up in my lap and I knew. Moms just know. Especially when they are burning you through their clothes. I'm good like that.

But then the conflict in my head has to start. Well crap. I've been on vacation for the last 4 days, its year end and month end and..... Then the guilt starts. Instead of being solely focused on his being sick, I'm using 1/2 my energy worrying about telling my boss and praying the motrin kicks in and everything is better in the morning.

I wonder if this ever goes away? Will there be a day when I know for sure I did the right thing and I won't second guess my every decision?

5 comments:

Dana Tate said...

oH I am so so sorry to read about that mommy guilt. I now stay home with my daughter, but very vividly remember those feeling of needing to be both places..but just remember there is no right way to be a mom. Your doing your best for your family. Keep it up!

Kresta said...

I think every Mommy second-guesses themselves continually, whether they work outside of the home or not. It's perfectly normal. Hope your little one is better.

Tracie said...

HUGS sweetie! We all second-guess ourselves. You're doing the best you can!

Mary said...

I've so been where your at
It's happened to me alot the kids will get sick and I'll be coming off of a vacation or Holiday's.
I hate calling out but if they'll be ok I try to get em to the sittter if not oh well home it is b/c I have no one they can stay with :(
Work is work so I deal with it.

Eve said...

Honestly, probably not. I am a SAHM and second guess myself all the time!! LOL